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[Wednesday, September 6, 2006|09:50 p.m.]
[Music
| Machinae Supremacy - Return to Snake Mountain
"read that while smiling on you" ..? Decided to start a new sewing project. Yay? I'm going to cut down on splenda! Pointless update ftw!
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[Tuesday, August 29, 2006|01:51 p.m.]
[Music
| Within Temptation - Memories
I'm officially addicted to SC, I think.My books arrived two days ago, I'm so happy for them. I finished Wasted within the day. Slept at 8am- the book was enrapturing. Reading Blood and Gold now. <3 vampires.
It's so early... The mysterious morning hours are upon me. I wonder if I really should have gone to Santa Anita Park. It could have been fun, but it's far and I don't have a ride from. Can't get back to sleep, so I'll blog and blast some music. :D
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[Friday, August 25, 2006|08:58 a.m.]
[Music
| Lacuna Coil - Within Me
Japanese 3 // SummersUS History Honors // Ackerman
Math Analysis // Eguez
AP English // Swift [dropping]
Psychology // Sutro
AP Chemistry // Vorak
Crap. Summers first period? That means I can't be late. Ever. I don't think I've been on time daily for even a week last year. Despite how determined I am now to not fall into that habit, I know this motivation will flicker out soon. As for AP English, no idea how that happened. Mistake, no doubt. I'm excited to meet Sutro in Psychology class. x]
Everyone has changed their appearance- we're all growing up haha. Well, not everybody but I was surprised plenty today. Jon Lau still looks and acts exactly the same- he's the only one I think. I wonder what this year will be like- would I be too busy with homework and such to do much else? Junior year is supposed to be hardest, right? I have six academic classes and eight textbooks. I think i'm out on a journey to ruin my GPA. Despite the prospect of all that wonderful learning, I fear this year will be drab. But, I should enjoy it, since I'm far more afraid of college. I'm just worried about my future in general. I want to do so much, change so much, and become so much. So desperately do I want to do that, that I am afraid to begin, lest I fail.
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[Wednesday, August 23, 2006|02:06 a.m.]
[Music
| Seether ft. Amy Lee - Broken
tired... it's been a long 32 hours. I decided to not sleep last night, since if I had slept, I'd never have been able to wake up in time to get a ride w/ my mother to Tiffany's house for her bday party today.
So I arrived at her house at about 9, and I join Tiffo and Anna on the comforter and blankets on the floor. We chatted and such for a few hours, moving from the floor to the bed. The morning was beautiful, not too sunny, not too bright. Breezy and the view from the window was amazing. It was great fun, I had missed this. I think, even though the rest of the day was only alright, these first few hours made everything worth it. Tiffany's house has a large, white, magnificent cocktoo which was being extremely annoying, squawking incessantly and loudly. It was pretty entertaining to see Edward, Tiffany's cousin, come out, shout obscenities at the bird, and then start shoot at it w/ his bbgun. I mashed some cake onto somebody for the first time today- the bday girl, of course- and she was able to headbutt some of the cake onto my face and a bit of my hair. Ugh... I left her house at about 8:30, feeling very tired by then. I decided on my way home that I shall try to stay up as long as I can. I wonder how long I can keep it up.
So not in a happy place right now.
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[Sunday, August 20, 2006|10:00 p.m.]
[Music
| Anna Tsuchiya - Every Moment
Did surveys with Tiffany today.. xD1. What bill do you hate paying the most? Library bill?
2. What's the best place to eat a romantic dinner? hmm.. a beautifully decorated rooftop
3. Last time you Puked from Drinking? never
4. When is the last time you got drunk and danced on a bar? neverrrrr
5. Name of your First Grade Teacher? Mrs. Wong <3
6. What do you really want to be doing right now? Playing SC with a lot of people
7. What did you want to be when you were growing up? A scientist, architect, movie director, fashion designer... back on scientist, I think
8.How many colleges did you attend before you settled on the one? Not there yet
9. Why did you wear the shirt that you have on right now? Because... I bought it?
10. Gas Prices! First Thought? Hydrogen Gas as fuel!
11. If you could move anywhere, where would you go and who would you take? Europe or Japan.. I'd take anyone who wants to come.
12. First Thought? NO! My dream!
13. Last thought before falling asleep last night? SLEEP ALREADY DAMN IT
14. Favorite style of Underwear? erm... grey area between thong and granniepantie?
15. Favorite style of Underwear for the SAME sex? Er.. I was talking about the OPPOSITE sex before?
17. If you didn't have to work would you? Probably
18. Get up early or sleep in? Sleep.. to a certain point
20. Favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a guy? Go out and stretch on a blanket or something to watch the sky and talk or something
26. Ocean or Lake? Lake
27. Do you think Marriage is an outdated ritual that was invented by people who died at 20? No
28. Who do you Stalk on myspace? Nobody
29. Favorite Guilty Pleasure? Food
30. Favorite Movie you wouldn't want anyone to find out about? Hrm.. I'm proud of the movies I like
31. What's your drink? Coffee
32. Cowboys or Indians? ew's
33. Cops or Robbers? erm... Robbers with style..? I don't know
34. Do you cheer for the bad guy? depends
35. What Hollywood star do you think resembles you best? Not enough asians in Hollywood to really tell
38. Who from High School would you like to run into? Er.. nobody right now. I'll see them soon enough
39. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now? Radio?
42. Norm or Cliff? what..?
43. The Cosby Show or the Simpsons? Simpsons
44. Worst Relationship Mistake that you wish you could take back? Wishes do nothing but expose your sorrows.
45. Do you Like the Person who sits directly across from you at work? I don't work yet
47. What Famous person would you like to have dinner with? Kaya <3
48. What famous Person would you like to sleep with? Kaya <3
49. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose? No
50. Last book you read for real? Darkwitch Rising
52. Strangest Place you have ever brushed your teeth? Church
53. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go? The Winchester House
54. Number of texts in a day? Texts are expensive!
55. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or relationship? Erm... considering that I can't work, a relationship
56. Do you go to church/synagogue? No
57. Pencil or Pen? Pen
58. Describe your favorite Day? I don't remember
59. How many jobs have you had? None
60. What would be your "dream job"? I don't know... I can't have a dream like this without considering reality
61. What do you want to achieve in life? Be happy, and be purposeful
1.Do you like having your picture taken? Depends on who I'm with
2.Have you ever done a photo shoot, professional or non? Hmm... yeah, for fun, I was the photographer
3.If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go and why? Japan to shop my ass off
4.Who would you take with you on this little adventure? Anyone who'd like to come. If i don't like them, I've kick them out of my house!
5.What would you say is the most daring thing to do in a lifetime? Defy the world... Like Hitler :D
6.Would you ever do that? Mebeeeee
7.Have you ever done crossword puzzles? Yeah
8.Ever actually completed one? Yeah
9.Pick up the closest book and write a sentence at random from it. "'I need you to look a little morose,' he said, 'for the duty I have for you in the morning.'" Darkwitch Rising
10.Do the same with a lyric from either a cd or the radio. "The sweet feeling of immorality, I’ll gourge myself with it till I hurl." Kaya <3
11.Have you ever tried to analyze your own dreams? All the time
12.Would you put up posters in your room? Sure
13.Can you sing? Not well at all
14.Do you ever sing to yourself while doing everyday tasks? Not often
15.What's your favorite color of post-it note? White
16.How many cassette tapes do you own? None
17.How many cd's do you own? Like two?
18.Ever bought a cd for just one song? No
19.What would your perfect day consist of? Doing something very crazy with somebody very special
20.Have you ever lied to get off the phone or out of talking to someone on line? Yeah
21.Have you ever written a survey? As in written the questions? No...
22.How about a song? If so share it. Haha, no way.
23.Or maybe a poem? If so share it or one of them. Latest one... which was a long long time:
It's too late to be something
Limbs cannot be regenerated
And emotions cannot be learned
Strength cannot be obtained
by a body worn from atrophy
And a mind so weak, so fragile
that by the dimmest flash of light...
the mind breaks
But no worries, for in my
broken mind, in my useless,
motionless body, and in my
purposeless existence
I'll have dreams and memories.
And you'll be in them.
24.Is your vcr flashing 12:00 all the time? Nope
25.Do you read your horoscope? Not often
26.If so, do you base your day on it? Hah no
27.Would you rather chew gum or use mouthwash and why? I love chewing gun!
28.Do you floss? No..
29.Are you addicted to napster like me? Nope
30.How many times a year about are you sick? Er once?
31.Ever been in an airplane? Not in a long time
32.If so where were you flying to? Chayyyyyynah!
33.What radio station to you listen to most? Gotham Radio (internet)
34.What color are your shoes? Black
35.Was fuzzy wuzzy a bear? fuzzy wuzzy isn't a fur ball?
36.Do you know how to play dominos? Not really
37.Or do you think I just mean pizza by that? No
38.Speaking of pizza, what's your favorite kind? Hawaiian...? I don't eat pizza
39.What color are your eyes? Dull brown
40.How many surveys have you filled out this lifetime? Haha... 0>surveys filled>25
41.Describe your bedroom, include all details. No thank you.
42.Name one person your life is made better by. Roommate
43.Would you or have you ever shaven your head? No, my current hair is less common than baldness
44.How about someone else's? If they asked me to
45.Can you do math with ease? Um. Yes?
46.What size is your computer screen? 1024 x 680
47.If you could only talk to one person online who would that be? SmarterChild! xD
48.Name your favorite type of music and why. Rock and Metal, I can't choose
49.Are you a vegetarian? Ovo-lacto one
50.How about an aspiring actor/actress? No
51.What famous person dead or alive would you interview if you had the chance? Kaya <3
52.Which movie can you watch and say the lines along with the actors? O.O; I don't do that. It ruins the movie
53.Name one your passions in life. Kaya <3
54.What's your least favorite time of day? Whenever it's hottest
55.Who's your favorite member in a band, singer, guiter, bass, drummer, and why? Vocalist. Words and voice are everything to me
56.Do you use hairspray or gel? No
57.Describe your favorite meal. Er I don't knnow
58.What color is the inside of your head when you close your eyes? Dark red, at the moment
59.Ever listen to classical music? A bit
60.Have you ever said lol in real life without thinking about it? Yes...
61.Do you find you use internet language when writing notes irl? No way
62.What songs would be on your ideal cd? =_=; That would take too long to decide and write
63.Say one thing you've learned today. Learned how to play something on the guitar
64.What is the best present you've ever given someone else? Erm...
65.What is the best present someone else has ever given to you? h.Naoto tie... or Mogu <3
66.So hey, what's your full name? Dairiis Liiiiiiiiiii
67.Describe yourself while drunk. Never been drunk
68.How big are the windows in your house? The ones in my room span the length of one of my rooms
69.Do you wear a watch? No
70.What's the kinkiest thing you've ever done with someone else? o.o;
71.What's the largest age difference between you and someone you've dated? 1 year
72.How many mirrors do you have? One
73.Write one sentence stating what you want people to say about you after you've passed on. "I hope her reincarnate doesn't live in Ethiopia..."
74.Have you ever sailed? No
75.How fast can you run? Erm, atm, slow as hell. Fastest was 7:33 m/mi.
76.What do you believe in? Dragons! haha i'm kidding. There's nothing to believe in but yourself.
77.How long does it take you to get ready to go out? Er.. I can take a while
78.Do you shower daily? If not how often? Sometimes. I don't like showering
79.What one thing would you change in your life if you had the power to do so? Reality? I would be skinny! Imagination? I'd be able to fly with wings
80.Describe the ideal superpower and what you would do if you had it. Fly
81.Are candles romantic or a fire hazard? Both, that's what makes them wonderful xD
82.Name something you've done in the last 24hrs no matter how big or small. Pressed a button on my keyboard
83.Do you wear necklaces, bracelets, anklets, earrings, rings? Necklaces, earrings. I NEED rings
84.What colors are you wearing right now? Black w/ white socks (It's cold >.<)
85.How often do you change the sheets on your bed? Err I dunno
86.Have you ever gotten lost? If so explain. No... I find my way
87.What's on your computer desk? A cup, books, electronics... damn this really is messy
88.How many folders are on your desktop at the present moment? 2, I'm organized ^_^
89.When your talking do you ever use your hands to do quotation marks in the air when saying certain words? Yeah
90.Which landmark would you climb if you could? Hmm... I don't know. I'd love to climb something, just can't decide
91.Do you own or have you read, or thought of reading any self-help books? No lolz
92.Ever seriously questioned your sanity? No
93.Can you breakdance? No, someone said they'd teach me though :3
94.What's in your fridge right now? Fruits and veggies and.. lots of other junk
95.How many people do you live with? 2 others
96.Have you or would you ever do anything more than kiss in a public area? o.O; no
97.What is the strangest thing you've ever done? Can't think of one is specific
98.Name an instrument you've never played but would like to. Used to be the drums. But now I don't mind since I have my guitar
99.Have you ever been on tv or the radio? Yes, TV
100.What is the worst thing anyone could ever do to you? Er I don't know... leave me stranded somewhere? torture me slowly the death? x.x
101.Are you a fast typer? Yes
102.How high have you counted before getting bored? I don't count to sleep
103.Describe how you sleep. (ie. your position and/or how you fall asleep) Usually on my left
104.Are you straight, bi, gay? Straight
105.Do you ever do something else while on the computer? If so what? Draw, TV, eat
106.What is the most expensive item you own? My computer
107.How about the least expensive? Gum
108.What's your favorite card game to play? Big 2?
109.What do you do online? SC, download illegally, chat, type stuff, read stuff
110.Name some stores you've bought clothes in before. JC Penny?
111.Have you ever read a book and not understood it? No, haha
112.Have you ever watched a movie and not understood it? If so which one? Tale of Two Sisters. Its difficult to not be able to understand the language its spoken in and subtitled in
113.Do people pick up your slang language more than you pick up theirs? I don't really have a slang
114.Are you easily influenced by other people, or current trends? I'd hope not
115.What makes you unique in your own opinion? My clothes, I make some of them
116.Name your worst quality. I'm selfish and bitchy and possessive and apathetic
117.Name your best. I'm uh... I've got long hair
118.What would you like to do with your life? Be happy (which means I'll have to be successful, rich and capable)
119.Do you blowdry your hair? No
120.How many clocks are in your house? Err.. 2 at most?
121.Are they all set on the same time? No
122.Have you ever intentionally set a clock ahead or behind the actual time? Yeah
123.What do you think about when you first wake up in the morning? About my dream
124.Which browser do you use? Mozilla Firefox
125.Do you bite your nails? No
126.Would you ever leave little notes to your gf/bf? Sure
127.Ever been to a farm? No
128.Tell me about your dream last night. Nah, I'd rather not.
129.Ever seen a shooting star? Only in a dream
130.Say one thing about yourself you've never told anyone. Why would I do that?
131.Do your days fly by or seem to last forever? Depends
132.Have you ever stayed in a fancy high class rich hotel? No.. I snuck into one to use the restroom though
133.Have you ever stayed in a rent-by-the-hour motel? No
134.What in your opinion is the best advertising slogan out there? I don't know, the commericial for Milk right now is pretty great
135.When they start sending rockets to the moon for us civilians, will you be on the list to go? Maybe
136.How are you feeling right now? Anticipating
137.Have you ever written anything on your skin? Yeah
138.If so what? Notes and drawings, scribbles
139.Which website do you frequent most often? Hrm... I don't know
140.What color is most of your clothes? Black
141.Do you own any plants? No
142.Are things as bad as they seem? Hell no
143.Descibe the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you. There's a lot
144.Ever looked directly at the sun? Yeah
145.Have you ever made a pin hole camera to watch the eclipse? I've never seen an eclipse
146.What's your favorite cereal? Special K <3
147.Who do you miss? My old friends
148.Name something you just can't forget no matter how hard you try. Ugh, mostly bad memories
149.Describe the worst fight you've ever been in whether physical or verbal. Er with family I suppose
150.Say something else about yourself you've never told anyone before. Why would I do this?
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[Friday, August 18, 2006|04:11 p.m.]
[Music
| Isola - Egoiste Butterfly
I was making coffee this morning, when a moth flew at me. How dare it. I stomped on it! This is the beginning of my revenge. No more being terrorized by moths in the house.Anyways, I was rudely awakened this morning (at nearly 10:00 too- so early) by my mother leading an asian couple into my room, with me in there, still in bed, with my i'm-sleeping hair, expression, clothes, and mood. "Oh haha, yes, her temper is quite bad..", says my mother. They had it coming. Interrupted my dream about... sex in the city x starcraft... erm...? Does that feng sui stuff really work?
I went to the mal yesterday, hoping to buy a present for Tiffany and something normal to wear for hiking. Well, at least I now know that the gift won't be purchased from the mall. And I got the shirt. But on my way to getting coffee, I saw a random copper haired lady gesturing at me (I had earphones in), waving to talk to me. She invited me to some random "high energy party" for high school and college students in downtown, thinking I was older than I really am. Oops? It was sponsored by some church. I was sort of speechless... why do I attract Christians so? Anyways, I'm paranoid and suspicious. So, I'll go play some SC or something instead.
Tuned the guitar, finally. LOLZ@UFTWBBQKTHXBYE! I don't quite know what that means, haha.
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[Friday, August 18, 2006|11:37 a.m.]
[Music
| Schwarz Stein - New Vogue Children
I spent so much money buying stuff off the internet today... I feel rather guilty. But moreso angry. Angry because I CAN'T TUNE MY GUITAR! I was lucky to have been able to tune it properly last time... Noesss T-T
Anyways, I was asked to consider God... to think about him. And so I did:
Edit: I put the gigantic block of text under the Musings sections, where it will be less conspicuous.
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[Tuesday, August 15, 2006|10:05 p.m.]
[Music
| Schwarz Stein - Succubus
mmm.. Listening to Kaya makes me smile~ God, I love these lyrics:I’ll gourge myself with it till I hurl
As with this perverted sentiment will
Gnaw away at your willing new lips.
Such long, thick lashes
My beloved slave too
Everything, everything!
His hair, his voice, will be mine soon
I could never think to forgive
Things like betrayal though
You lied with that tongue of yours
So I’m going to cut it off
Hey, you want to hold me, don’t you?
That’s right, everything's been a bad dream
But I’ll smash apart your past for you
So come here dear, come to me my dear
Nightmare, no more
I wish it had been Kaya who visited me in my dream instead of that random blonde lady haha.
Re-visited GTL today to meet up Annie and her kiddies. Walked in, "Have you seen Annie?" to a random boy. He remains speechless and stares. "Go out before you scare the children!" , ah, yes, that's Annie. I didn't particularly want to be in there in the first place, so I head out, hoping that the children were duly terrified.
I was soon joined by Annie, Caleb and Joy. So we walk and talk our way to and through three restaurants. Settled in Carls Jr, where I finished my coffee and Annie ate while we chatted. I now know that she has a secret... one that I aspire to tear from her haha. Gave them a tour of my house, then they set off back towards GTL.
I regret not working hard last semester in AP English... But I must admit, dropping out, if even only for a semester, is a relief, a guilty pleasure, I guess...
"I'm sure he meant that metaphallically!" hahah <3
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[Monday, August 14, 2006|12:53 p.m.]
[Music
| Scarling - Bandaid Covers the Bullet Hole
First entry since archive to celebrate new layout? Well, might as well write something, since this place will probably become unactive again by the end of this week.
Got to go sleep now, I have a brunch tomorrow... meaning I'll be needing to be up way before noon.
So, to be brief: Went to Annie's, then Harvest Crusade yesterday. Pictures are worth 1,000 words and I haven't even got 500 words, so consider yourself lucky.
Erm, well, Annie was the photographer...
And no, I am not Christian now. They tried, yes, but agnosticism ftw.
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[Sunday, August 13, 2006|09:47 p.m.]